Journey Through JEE Advanced 2019: My Emotional Ladder
Every year, thousands of students endure the rigorous process of the JEE (Joint Entrance Examination) to secure a spot in one of the prestigious Indian Institutes of Technology (IITs). While the path to success is arduous, the highs and lows of this journey can be etched in one's memory for a lifetime. This article delves into my personal experience of JEE Advanced 2019, sharing the ebbs and flows of my emotions, reactions, and the impact on my family.
Initial Expectations and Reality Check
My preparation for the JEE Advanced 2019 was marked by a mix of confidence and uncertainty. I had a decent rank in JEE Main, but JEE Advanced always seemed to be the ultimate test. The day before the exam, I was hopeful but not entirely convinced that I would meet the cut-off. As the result flashed on my screen, the reality sunk in. I had not qualified the exam, despite my best efforts. Initially, I felt shattered and dejected, encapsulated in a world of disappointment. My father, who always supported my dreams, was sitting next to me, hoping for good news. Uponseeing the result, he simply said, 'Kya hua nahi hua kya?' (Did it not happen?) My response was a silence, and he took the phone to confirm the result, saying, 'Koi bat nahi nahi hua to kitne saare bacche har saal nahi kar paate clear, khud ek teacher hu maine dekha hai na, tension mat le.' (There's nothing to worry about; many students do not clear the exam each year. As their teacher, I've seen students who also struggle.) My family, despite their efforts to console me, could only tell me to stay optimistic for the next year.
Post-Result Reflections and Hope
Although demoralized, I understood that immediate regret was not constructive. I needed to plan for the upcoming years with renewed determination. The emotional struggle was real, but it was a reminder that even with hard work, results are sometimes unpredictable. My JEE Main rank of 5956 came as a shock, reflecting a significant drop from my expectations. However, the AIR 3833 in JEE Advanced, albeit not prestigious, was a small victory. It restored my faith in hard work and perseverance, proving to me that determination can outweigh initial disappointments. As I opened the website for the results, the slow server response and initial failure to get the results highlighted the technical challenges faced by many test-takers. The eventual success in clearing JEE Advanced with an AIR of 420 was a testament to my resilience and parents' unwavering support.
Post-Result Reflection
The events leading up to the release of the JEE Advanced 2019 result were fraught with tension and disappointment. After securing a CRL of 21999 in JEE Mains and an insufficient score in BITSAT, every aspect of my life felt like a failure. The intensity of emotions reached a peak during the Advanced exam. As the exam day approached, I was determined to give it my all, even when my father and I disagreed on whether to participate in BITSAT. The exam day was daunting, and the moment of truth came with Chemistry and Physics sections, which are typically my strong areas. However, the questions were beyond my grasp, and I felt a deep sense of loss, sobbing throughout the Physics section. But I managed to complete the exam, and on the way home, I felt like it was my last shot.
The waiting period after the exam was agonizing, and the server error on the result day was frustrating. However, the happiness I felt upon seeing my results was unparalleled. My father's calculations had been off, and my actual scores were better than his predictions, leading to a series of emotional reunions and celebrations with my family. The moment I finally cracked the JEE Advanced with an AIR of 6033, my mother's initial query of, 'Does that mean you’ll go to IIT?' highlighted the significance of the result. The joy was overwhelming, and even now, years later, that day remains my happiest memory. It is a reminder of the importance of perseverance and the unexpected turns that can lead us to our goals.